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I went through three outlines for this book before I found a
plot and premise that I felt worked. The story required Anthony's
father to have died about ten years before the book began, but
in The Duke and I, which was completely
edited (but not yet published), his father had died two years
earlier. I had to go back and make all the changes while doing
the final proofread of DUKE. I was terrified that I would miss
a mention!
Regular readers know that I love to include animals in my books.
Newton, the overweight corgi, is modeled after Homer, a very
friendly corgi who lives on my street. Corgis, while not an
officially recognized breed in Britain until the 1920s, originated
in Wales during the Middle Ages. Corgis are also very popular
with the royal family. Queen Elizabeth's dogs are "dorgis,"
which are corgi-dachsund mixes.
The Viscount Who Loved Me is second in the Bridgerton series. The rest are as follows:
#1: The Duke and I
#3: An Offer from a Gentleman
#4: Romancing Mr. Bridgerton
#5: To Sir Phillip, With Love
#6: When He Was Wicked
#7: It's In His Kiss
#8: On the Way to the Wedding
Lady Whistledown, the gossip columnist featured in The Viscount Who Loved Me, "narrates" her own anthology
in The Further Observations Of Lady Whistledown. This book is not, however, a part of the Bridgerton
series.
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A Waldenbooks bestseller! Six weeks on the Waldenbooks Romance
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Prologue
Anthony Bridgerton had always
known he would die young.
Oh, not as a child. Young Anthony
had never had cause to ponder his own mortality. His early years
had been a young boy's perfection, right from the very day of
his birth.
It was true that Anthony was
the heir to an ancient and wealthy viscountcy, but unlike most
other aristocratic couples, Lord and Lady Bridgerton were very
much in love, and they saw their son's birth not as the arrival
of an heir, but rather that of a child.
And so there were no parties,
no fetes, no celebration other than that of mother and father
staring in wonderment at their new son.
The Bridgertons were young parents--
Edmund barely twenty and Violet just eighteen, but they were
sensible and they were strong, and they loved their son with
a fierceness and devotion that was rarely seen in their social
circles. Much to her own mother's horror, Violet insisted upon
nursing the boy herself, and Edmund never subscribed to the
prevailing attitude that fathers should neither see nor hear
their children. He took the infant on long hikes across the
fields of Kent, spoke to him of philosophy and poetry before
he could possibly understand the words, and told him a bedtime
story every night.
Because the viscount and viscountess
were so young and so very much in love, it came as no surprise
to anyone when, just two years after Anthony's birth, he was
joined by a younger brother, christened Benedict. Edmund immediately
adjusted his daily routine to take two sons on his hikes, and
he spent a week holed up in the stables, working with his leathersmith
to devise a special pack that would hold Anthony on the his
back while he held the baby Benedict in his arms.
They walked across fields and
streams, and he told them of wondrous things, of perfect flowers
and clear blue skies, of knights in shining armor and damsels
in distress. Violet used to laugh when they returned, all windblown
and sun-kissed, and Edmund would say, "See? Here is our damsel
in distress. Clearly we must save her." And Anthony would throw
himself into his mother's arms, giggling as he swore he'd protect
her from the fire-breathing dragon they'd seen just two miles
down the road in the village.
"Two miles down the road in the
village?" Violet would breathe, keeping her voice carefully
laden with horror. "Heaven above, what would I do without three
strong men to protect me?"
"Benedict's a baby," Anthony
would reply.
"But he'll grow up," she'd always
say, tousling his hair, "just as you did. And just as you still
will."
Edmund always treated his children
with equal affection and devotion, but late at night, when Anthony
cradled the Bridgerton pocket watch to his chest (given to him
on his eighth birthday by his father, who had received
it on his eighth birthday from his father) he liked to think
that his relationship with his father was just a little bit
special. Not because Edmund loved him best; by that point the
Bridgerton siblings numbered four (Colin and Daphne had arrived
fairly close together) and Anthony knew very well that all the
children were well loved.
No, Anthony liked to think that
his relationship with his father was special simply because
he'd known him the longest. After all, no matter how long Benedict
had known their father, Anthony would always have two years
on him. And six on Colin. And as for Daphne, well, beside the
fact that she was a girl (the horror!) she'd known Father a
full eight years less than he had and, he liked to remind himself,
always would.
Edmund Bridgerton was, quite
simply, the very center of Anthony's world. He was tall, his
shoulders were broad, and he could ride a horse as if he'd been
born in the saddle. He always knew the answers to arithmetic
questions (even when the tutor didn't), he saw no reason why
his sons should not have a tree house (and then he went and
built it himself), and his laugh was the sort that warmed a
body from the inside out.
Edmund taught Anthony how to
ride. He taught Anthony how to shoot. He taught him to swim.
He took him off to Eton himself, rather than sending him in
a carriage with servants, as most of Anthony's future friends
arrived, and when he saw Anthony glancing nervously about the
school that would become his new home, he had a heart-to-heart
talk with his eldest son, assuring him that everything would
be all right.
And it was. Anthony knew it would
be. His father, after all, never lied.
Anthony loved his mother. Hell,
he'd probably bite off his own arm if it meant keeping her safe
and well. But growing up, everything he did, every accomplishment,
every goal, every single hope and dream -- it was all for his
father. And then one day, everything changed. It was funny,
he reflected later, how one's life could alter in an instant,
how one minute everything could be a certain way, and the next
it's simply... not.
It happened when Anthony was
eighteen, home for the summer and preparing for his first year
at Oxford. He was to belong to All Souls College, as his father
had before him, and his life was as bright and dazzling as any
eighteen-year-old had a right to enjoy. He had discovered women,
and perhaps more splendidly, they had discovered him, and he
even managed not to roll his eyes when he passed his mother
in the hall-- pregnant with her eighth child! Anthony thought
it a bit unseemly that his parents were still happily reproducing,
but he kept his opinions to himself.
Who was he to doubt Edmund's
wisdom? Maybe he, too, would want more children at the advanced
age of thirty-eight.
When Anthony found out, it was
late afternoon. He was returning from a long and bruising ride
with Benedict and had just pushed through the front door of
Aubrey Hall, the ancestral home of the Bridgertons, when he
saw his ten-year-old sister, sitting on the floor. Benedict
was still in the stables, having lost some silly bet with Anthony,
the terms of which required him to rub down both horses.
Anthony stopped short when he
saw Daphne. It was odd enough that his sister was sitting in
the middle of the floor in the main hall. It was even more odd
that she was crying.
Daphne never cried.
"Daff," he said hesitantly, too
young to know what to do with a crying female and wondering
if he'd ever learn, "what--"
But before he could finish his
question, Daphne lifted her head, and the shattering heartbreak
in her large, brown eyes cut through him like a knife. He stumbled
back a step, knowing something was wrong, terribly wrong.
"He's dead," Daphne whispered.
"Papa is dead."
For a moment Anthony was sure
he'd misheard. His father couldn't be dead. Other people died
young, like Uncle Hugo, but Uncle Hugo had been small and frail.
Well, at least smaller and frailer than Edmund.
"You're wrong," he told Daphne.
"You must be wrong."
She shook her head. "Eloise told
me. He was... It was..."
Anthony knew he shouldn't shake
his sister while she sobbed, but he couldn't help himself. "It
was what, Daphne?"
"A bee," she whispered. "He was
stung by a bee."
For a moment Anthony could do
nothing but stare at her. Finally, his voice hoarse and barely
recognizable, he said, "A man doesn't die from a bee sting,
Daphne."
She said nothing, just sat there
on the floor, her throat working convulsively as she tried to
control her tears.
"He's been stung before," Anthony
added, his voice rising in volume. "I was with him. We were
both stung. We came across a nest. I was stung on the shoulder."
Unbidden, his hand rose to touch the spot where he'd been stung
so many years before. In a whisper he added, "He on his arm."
Daphne just stared at him with
an eerily blank expression.
"He was fine," Anthony insisted.
He could hear the panic in his voice and knew he was frightening
his sister, but he was powerless to control it. "A man can't
die from a bee sting!"
Daphne shook her head, her dark
eyes suddenly looking about a hundred years old. "It was a bee,"
she said in a hollow voice. "Eloise saw it. One minute he was
just standing there, and the next he was... he was..."
Anthony felt something very strange
building within him, as if his muscles were about to jump through
his skin. "The next he was what, Daphne?"
"Gone." She looked bewildered
by the word, as bewildered as he felt.
Anthony left Daphne sitting in
the hall and took the stairs three at a time up to his parents'
bedchamber. Surely his father wasn't dead. A man couldn't die
from a bee sting. It was impossible. Utterly mad. Edmund Bridgerton
was young, he was strong. He was tall, his shoulders were broad,
his muscles were powerful, and by God, no insignificant honey
bee could have felled him.
But when Anthony reached the
upstairs hall, he could tell by the utter and complete silence
of the dozen or so hovering servants that the situation was
grim.
And their pitying faces... For
the rest of his life he'd be haunted by those pitying faces.
He'd thought he'd have to push
his way into his parents' room, but the servants parted as if
drops in the Red Sea, and when Anthony pushed open the door,
he knew.
His mother was sitting on the
edge of the bed, not weeping, not even making a sound, just
holding his father's hand as she rocked slowly back and forth.
His father was still. Still as...
Anthony didn't even want to think
the word.
"Mama?" he choked out. He hadn't
called her that for years; she'd been "Mother" since he'd left
for Eton.
She turned, slowly, as if hearing
his voice through a long, long tunnel.
"What happened?" he whispered.
She shook her head, her eyes
hopelessly far away. "I don't know," she said. Her lips remained
parted by an inch or so, as if she'd meant to say something
more but then forgotten to do it.
Anthony took a step forward,
his movements awkward and jerky.
"He's gone," Violet finally whispered.
"He's gone and I... Oh, God, I..." She placed a hand on her
belly, full and round with child. "I told him-- Oh, Anthony,
I told him--"
She looked as if she might shatter
from the inside out. Anthony choked back the tears that were
burning his eyes and stinging his throat and moved to her side.
"It's all right, Mama," he said.
But he knew it wasn't all right.
"I told him this had to be our last," she gasped, sobbing onto
his shoulder.
"I told him I couldn't carry
another, and we'd have to be careful, and... Oh, God, Anthony,
what I'd do to have him here and give him another child. I don't
understand. I just don't understand..."
Anthony held her while she cried.
He said nothing; it seemed useless to try to make any words
fit the devastation in his heart.
He didn't understand, either.

The doctors came later that evening
and pronounced themselves baffled. They'd heard of such things
before, but never in one so young and strong. He was so vital,
so powerful; nobody could have known. It was true that the viscount's
younger brother Hugo had died quite suddenly the year before,
but such things did not necessarily run in families, and besides,
even though Hugo had died by himself out of doors, no one had
noticed a bee sting on his skin.
Then again, nobody had looked.
Nobody could have known, the
doctors kept saying, over and over until Anthony wanted to strangle
them all. Eventually he got them out of the house, and he put
his mother to bed. They had to move her into a spare bedroom;
she grew agitated at the thought of sleeping in the bed she'd
shared for so many years with Edmund. Anthony managed to send
his six brothers and sisters to bed as well, telling them that
they'd all talk in the morning, that everything would be well,
and he would take care of them as their father would have wanted.
Then he walked into the room
where his father's body still lay and looked at him. He looked
at him and looked at him, staring at him for hours, barely blinking.
And when he left the room, he
left with a new vision of his own life, and new knowledge about
his own mortality.
Edmund Bridgerton had died at
the age of thirty-eight. And Anthony simply couldn't imagine
ever surpassing his father in any way, even in years.
Chapter One
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The
topic of rakes has, of course, been previously discussed
in this column, and This Author has come to the conclusion
that there are rakes, and there are Rakes.
Anthony Bridgerton is a Rake.
A rake (lower-case) is youthful
and immature. He flaunts his exploits, behaves with
utmost idiocy, and thinks himself dangerous to women.
A Rake (upper-case) knows he is
dangerous to women.
He doesn't flaunt his exploits
because he doesn't need to. He knows he will be whispered
about by men and women alike, and in fact, he'd rather
they didn't whisper about him at all. He knows who he
is and what he has done; further recountings are, to
him, redundant.
He doesn't behave like an idiot
for the simple reason that he isn't an idiot (any moreso
than must be expected among all members of the male
gender). He has little patience for the foibles of society,
and quite frankly, most of the time This Author cannot
say she blames him.
And if that doesn't describe Viscount
Bridgerton --surely this season's most eligible bachelor--
to perfection, This Author shall retire Her quill immediately.
The only question is: Will 1814 be the season he finally
succumbs to the exquisite bliss of matrimony?
This Author Thinks...
Not.
Lady Whistledown's Society Papers,
20 April 1814
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"Please don't tell me," Kate
Sheffield said to the room at large, "that she is writing about
Viscount Bridgerton again."
Her half-sister Edwina, younger
by almost four years, looked up from behind the single-sheet
newspaper. "How could you tell?"
"You're giggling like a madwoman."
Edwina giggled, shaking the
blue damask sofa on which they both sat.
"See?" Kate said, giving her
a little poke in the arm. "You always giggle when she writes
about some reprehensible rogue." But Kate grinned. There was
little she liked better than teasing her sister. In a good-natured
manner, of course.
Mary Sheffield, Edwina's mother,
and Kate's stepmother since the age of three, glanced up from
her embroidery and pushed her spectacles further up the bridge
of her nose. "What are you two laughing about?"
"Kate's in a snit because Lady
Whistledown is writing about that rakish viscount again," Edwina
explained.
"I'm not in a snit," Kate said,
even though no one was listening.
"Bridgerton?" Mary asked absently.
Edwina nodded. "Yes."
"She always writes about him."
"I think she just likes writing
about rakes," Edwina commented.
"Of course she likes writing
about rakes," Kate retorted. "If she wrote about boring people,
no one would buy her newspaper."
"That's not true," Edwina replied.
"Just last week she wrote about us, and heaven knows, we're
not the most interesting people in London."
Kate smiled at her sister's naivete.
Kate and Mary might not be the most interesting people in London,
but Edwina, with her buttery-colored hair and startlingly pale
blue eyes, had already been named the Incomparable of 1814.
Kate, on the other hand, with her plain brown hair and eyes,
was usually referred to as "the Incomparable's older sister."
She supposed there were worse
monikers. At least no one had yet begun to call her "the Incomparable's
spinster sister." Which was a great deal closer to the truth
than any of the Sheffields cared to admit. At twenty (nearly
twenty-one, if one was going to be scrupulously honest about
it), Kate was a bit long in the tooth to be enjoying her first
season in London.
But there hadn't really been
any other choice. The Sheffields hadn't been wealthy even when
Kate's father had been alive, and since he'd passed on five
years earlier, they'd been forced to economize even further.
They certainly weren't ready for the poorhouse, but they had
to mind every penny and watch every pound.
With their straitened finances,
the Sheffields could manage the funds for only one trip to London.
Renting a house --and a carriage-- and hiring the bare minimum
of servants for the season cost money. More money than they
could afford to spend twice. As it was, they'd had to save for
five solid years to be able to afford this trip to London. And
if the girls weren't successful on the Marriage Mart... Well,
no one was going to clap them into debtor's prison, but they
would have to look forward to a quiet life of genteel poverty
at some charmingly small cottage in Somerset.
And so the two girls were forced
to make their debuts in the same year. It had been decided that
the most logical time would be when Edwina was just seventeen
and Kate almost twenty-one. Mary would have liked to have waited
until Edwina was eighteen, and a bit more mature, but that would
have made Kate nearly twenty-two, and heavens, but who would
have married her then?
Kate smiled wryly. She hadn't
even wanted a season. She'd known from the outset that she wasn't
the sort who would capture the attention of the ton. She wasn't
pretty enough to overcome her lack of dowry, and she'd never
learned to simper and mince and walk delicately, and do all
those things other girls seemed to know how to do in the cradle.
Even Edwina, who didn't have a devious bone in her body, somehow
knew how to stand and walk and sigh so that men came to blows
just for the honor of helping her cross the street.
Kate, on the other hand, always
stood with her shoulders straight and tall, couldn't sit still
if her life depended upon it, and walked as if she were in a
race--and why not, she always wondered, if one was going somewhere,
what could possibly be the point in not getting there quickly?
As for her current season in
London, she didn't even like the city very much. Oh, she was
having a good enough time, and she'd met quite a few nice people,
but a London season seemed a horrible waste of money to a girl
who would have been perfectly content to remain in the country
and find some sensible man to marry there.
But Mary would have none of that.
"When I married your father," she'd said, "I vowed to love you
and bring you up with all the care and affection I'd give to
a child of my own blood."
Kate had managed to get in a
single, "But--" before Mary carried on with, "I have a responsibility
to your poor mother, God rest her soul, and part of that responsibility
is to see you married off happily and securely."
"I could be happy and secure
in the country," Kate had replied.
Mary had countered, "There are
more men from which to choose in London."
After which Edwina had joined
in, insisting that she would be utterly miserable without her,
and since Kate never could bear to see her sister unhappy, her
fate had been sealed.
And so here she was -- sitting
in a somewhat faded drawing room in a rented house in a section
of London that was almost fashionable, and...
She looked about mischievously.
...and she was about to snatch
a newspaper from her sister's grasp.
"Kate!" Edwina squealed, her
eyes bugging out at the tiny triangle of newsprint that remained
between her right thumb and forefinger. "I wasn't done yet!"
"You've been reading it forever,"
Kate said with a cheeky grin. "Besides, I want to see what she
has to say about Viscount Bridgerton today."
Edwina's eyes, which were usually
compared to peaceful Scottish lochs, glinted devilishly. "You're
awfully interested in the viscount, Kate. Is there something
you're not telling us?"
"Don't be silly. I don't even
know the man. And if I did, I would probably run in the opposite
direction. He is exactly the sort of man the two of us should
avoid at all costs. He could probably seduce an iceberg."
"Kate!" Mary exclaimed.
Kate grimaced. She'd forgotten
her stepmother was listening. "Well, it's true," she added.
"I've heard he's had more mistresses than I've had birthdays."
Mary looked at her for a few
seconds, as if trying to decide whether or not she wanted to
respond, and then finally she said, "Not that this is an appropriate
topic for your ears, but many men have."
"Oh." Kate flushed. There was
little less appealing than being decisively contradicted while
one was trying to make a grand point. "Well, then, he's had
twice as many. Whatever the case, he's far more promiscuous
than most men, and not the sort Edwina ought to allow to court
her."
"You are enjoying a season
as well," Mary reminded her.
Kate shot Mary the most sarcastic
of glances. They all knew that if the viscount chose to court
a Sheffield, it would not be Kate.
"I don't think there is anything
in there that's going to alter your opinion," Edwina said with
a shrug as she leaned toward Kate to get a better view of the
newspaper. "She doesn't say very much about him, actually. It's
more of a treatise on the topic of rakes."
Kate's eyes swept over the typeset
words. "Hmmph," she said, her favorite expression of disdain.
"I'll wager she's correct. He probably won't come up to scratch
this year."
"You always think Lady Whistledown
is correct," Mary murmured with a smile.
"She usually is," Kate replied.
"You must admit, for a gossip columnist, she displays remarkable
good sense. She has certainly been correct in her assessment
of all the people I have met thus far in London."
"You should make your own judgments,
Kate," Mary said lightly. "It is beneath you to base your opinions
upon a gossip column."
Kate knew her stepmother was
right, but she didn't want to admit it, and so she just let
out another "hmmph," and turned back to the paper in her hands.
Whistledown was, without
a doubt, the most interesting reading material in all London.
Kate wasn't entirely certain when the gossip column had begun
--sometime the previous year, she'd heard-- but one thing was
certain. Whoever Lady Whistledown was (and no one really
knew who she was) she was a well-connected member of the ton.
She had to be. No interloper could ever uncover all the gossip
she printed in her columns every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.
Lady Whistledown always
had all the latest on-dits, and unlike other columnists,
she wasn't hesitant about using people's full names. Having
decided last week, for example, that Kate didn't look good in
yellow, she wrote, clear as day: "The color yellow makes the
dark-haired Miss Katharine Sheffield look like a singed daffodil."
Kate hadn't minded the insult.
She'd heard it said on more than one occasion that one could
not consider oneself "arrived" until one had been insulted by
Lady Whistledown. Even Edwina, who was a huge social success
by anyone's measure, had been jealous that Kate had been singled
out for an insult.
And even though Kate didn't particularly
want to be in London for a season, she figured that if she had
to participate in the social whirl, she might as well not be
a complete and utter failure. If getting insulted in a gossip
column was to be her only sign of success, well, then, so be
it. Kate would take her triumphs where she may.
Now when Penelope Featherington
bragged about being likened to an overripe citrus fruit in her
tangerine satin, Kate could wave her arm and sigh with great
drama, "Yes, well, I am a singed daffodil."
"Someday," Mary announced out
of the blue, giving her spectacles yet another push with her
index finger, "someone is going to discover that woman's true
identity, and then she's going to be in trouble."
Edwina looked at her mother with
interest. "Do you really think someone will ferret her out?
She has managed to keep her secret for over a year now."
"Nothing that big can stay a
secret forever," Mary replied. She jabbed her embroidery with
her needle, pulling a long strand of yellow thread through the
fabric. "Mark my words. It's all going to come out sooner or
later, and when it does, a scandal the likes of which you have
never seen is going to erupt all over town."
"Well, if I knew who she was,"
Kate announced, flipping the single-sheet newspaper over to
page two, "I'd probably make her my best friend. She's fiendishly
entertaining. And no matter what anyone says, she's almost always
right."
Just then, Newton, Kate's somewhat
overweight corgi, trotted into the room.
"Isn't that dog supposed
to stay outside?" Mary asked. Then she yelped, "Kate!" as the
dog angled over to her feet and panted as if waiting for a kiss.
"Newton, come here this
minute," Kate ordered.
The dog gazed longingly at Mary,
then waddled over to Kate, hopped up onto the sofa, and laid
his front paws across her lap.
"He's covering you with
fur," Edwina said.
Kate shrugged as she stroked
his thick, caramel-colored coat. "I don't mind."
Edwina sighed, but she reached
out and gave Newton a quick pat, anyway. "What else does she
say?" she asked, leaning forward with interest. "I never did
get to see page two."
Kate smiled at her sister's sarcasm.
"Not much. A little something about the Duke and Duchess of
Hastings, who apparently arrived in town earlier this week,
a list of the food at Lady Danbury's ball, which she proclaimed
'surprisingly delicious,' and a rather unfortunate description
of Mrs. Featherington's gown Monday last."
Edwina frowned. "She does seem
to pick on the Featheringtons quite a bit."
"And no wonder," Mary said, setting
down her embroidery as she stood up. "That woman wouldn't know
how to pick out a dress color for her girls if a rainbow wrapped
itself right around her neck."
"Mother!" Edwina exclaimed.
Kate clapped a hand over her
mouth, trying not to laugh. Mary rarely made such opinionated
pronouncements, but when she did, they were always marvelous.
"Well, it's true. She keeps dressing
her youngest in tangerine. Anyone can see that poor girl needs
a blue or a mint green."
"You dressed me in yellow," Kate
reminded her.
"And I'm sorry I did. That will
teach me to listen to a shopgirl. I should never have doubted
my own judgment. We'll simply have to have that one cut down
for Edwina."
Since Edwina was a full head
shorter than Kate, and several shades more delicate, this would
not be a problem.
"When you do," Kate said, turning
to her sister, "make sure you eliminate the ruffle on the sleeve.
It's dreadfully distracting. And it itches. I had half
a mind to rip it off right there at the Ashbourne ball."
Mary rolled her eyes. "I am both
surprised and thankful that you saw fit to restrain yourself."
"I am surprised but not thankful,"
Edwina said with a mischievous smile. "Just think of the fun
Lady Whistledown would have had with that."
"Ah yes," Kate said, returning
her grin. "I can see it now. 'The singed daffodil rips off her
petals. More details to follow.' "
"I am going upstairs," Mary announced,
shaking her head at her daughters' antics. "Do try not to forget
that we have a party to attend this evening. You girls may want
to get a bit of rest before we go out. It's sure to be another
late night for us."
Kate and Edwina nodded and murmured
promises to that effect as Mary gathered her embroidery and
left the room. As soon as she was gone, Edwina turned to Kate
and asked, "Have you decided what you're going to wear tonight?"
"The green gauze, I think. I
should wear white, I know, but I fear it does not suit me."
"If you don't wear white," Edwina
said loyally, "then neither shall I. I shall wear my blue muslin."
Kate nodded her approval as she
glanced back at the newspaper in her hand, trying to balance
Newton, who had flipped over onto his back and was angling to
have his belly rubbed. "Just last week Mr. Berbrooke said you
are an angel in blue. On account of it matching your eyes so
well."
Edwina blinked in surprise. "Mr.
Berbrooke said that? To you?"
Kate looked back up. "Of course.
All of your swain try to pass on their compliments through me."
"They do? Whyever?"
Kate smiled slowly and indulgently.
"Well, now, Edwina, it might have something to do with the time
you announced to the entire audience at the Smythe-Smith musicale
that you could never marry without your sister's approval."
Edwina's cheeks turned just the
slightest bit pink. "It wasn't the entire audience," she mumbled.
"It might as well have been.
The news traveled faster than fire on rooftops. I wasn't even
in the room at the time and it only took two minutes for me
to hear about it."
Edwina crossed her arms and let
out a "hmmph" that made her sound rather like her older sister.
"Well, it's true, and I don't care who knows it. I know I'm
expected to make a grand and brilliant match, but I don't have
to marry someone who will ill-treat me. Anyone with the fortitude
to actually impress you would have to be up to snuff."
"Am I so difficult to impress,
then?"
The two sisters looked at each
other, then answered in unison, "Yes."
But as Kate laughed along with
Edwina, a niggling sense of guilt rose within her. All three
Sheffields knew that it would be Edwina who would snag a nobleman
or marry into a fortune. It would be Edwina who would ensure
that her family would not have to live out their lives in genteel
poverty. Edwina was a beauty, while Kate was...
Kate was Kate.
Kate didn't mind. Edwina's beauty
was simply a fact of life. There were certain truths Kate had
long since come to accept. Kate would never learn to waltz without
trying to take the lead; she'd always be afraid of electrical
storms, no matter how often she told herself she was being silly;
and no matter what she wore, no matter how she dressed her hair
or pinched her cheeks, she'd never be as pretty as Edwina.
Besides, Kate wasn't certain
that she'd like all the attention Edwina received. Nor, she
was coming to realize, would she relish the responsibility of
having to marry well to provide for her mother and sister.
"Edwina," Kate said softly, her
eyes growing serious, "you don't have to marry anyone you don't
like. You know that."
Edwina nodded, suddenly looking
as if she might cry.
"If you decide there isn't a
single gentleman in London who is good enough for you, then
so be it. We shall simply go back to Somerset and enjoy our
own company. There's no one I like better, anyway."
"Nor I," Edwina whispered.
"And if you do find a man who
sweeps you off your feet, then Mary and I shall be delighted.
You should not worry about leaving us, either. We shall get
on fine with each other for company."
"You might find someone to marry
as well," Edwina pointed out.
Kate felt her lips twist into
a small smile. "I might," she allowed, knowing that it probably
wasn't true. She didn't want to remain a spinster her entire
life, but she doubted she would find a husband here in London.
"Perhaps one of your lovesick suitors will turn to me once he
realizes you are unattainable," she teased.
Edwina swatted her with a pillow.
"Don't be silly."
"But I'm not!" Kate protested.
And she wasn't. Quite frankly, this seemed to her the most likely
avenue by which she might actually find a husband in town.
"Do you know what sort of man
I'd like to marry?" Edwina asked, her eyes turning dreamy.
Kate shook her head.
"A scholar."
"A scholar?"
"A scholar," Edwina said firmly.
Kate cleared her throat. "I'm
not certain you'll find many of those in town for the season."
"I know." Edwina let out a little
sigh. "But the truth is --and you know this even if I am not
supposed to let on in public-- I'm really rather bookish. I'd
much rather spend my day in a library than gadding about in
Hyde Park. I think I should enjoy life with man who enjoyed
scholarly pursuits as well."
"Right. Hmmm..." Kate's mind
worked frantically. Edwina wasn't likely to find a scholar back
in Somerset either. "You know, Edwina, it might be difficult
to find you a true scholar outside the university towns. You
might have to settle for a man who likes to read and learn as
you do."
"That would be all right," Edwina
said happily. "I'd be quite content with an amateur scholar."
Kate breathed a sigh of relief.
Surely they could find someone in London who liked to read.
"And do you know what," Edwina
added. "You truly cannot tell a book by its cover. All sorts
of people are amateur scholars. Why even that Viscount Bridgerton
Lady Whistledown keeps talking about might be a scholar at heart."
"Bite your tongue, Edwina. You
are not to have anything to do with Viscount Bridgerton. Everyone
knows he is the worst sort of rake. In fact, he's the worst
rake, period. In all London. In the entire country!"
"I know, I was just using him
as an example. Besides, he's not likely to choose a bride this
year, anyway. Lady Whistledown said so, and you yourself said
that she is almost always right."
Kate patted her sister on the
arm. "Don't worry. We will find you a suitable husband. But
not-- not not not not not Viscount Bridgerton!"

At that very moment, the subject
of their discussion was relaxing at White's with two of his
three younger brothers, enjoying a late afternoon drink.
Anthony Bridgerton leaned back
in his leather chair, regarded his scotch with a thoughtful
expression as he swirled it about, and then announced, "I'm
thinking about getting married."
Benedict Bridgerton, who had
been indulging in a habit his mother detested --tipping his
chair drunkenly on the back two legs-- fell over.
Colin Bridgerton started to choke.
Luckily for Colin, Benedict regained
his seat with enough time to smack him soundly on the back,
sending a green olive sailing across the table.
It narrowly missed Anthony's
ear.
Anthony let the indignity pass
without comment. He was all too aware that his sudden declaration
had come as a bit of a surprise.
Well, perhaps more than a bit.
"Complete," "total," and "utter" were words that came to mind.
Anthony knew that he did not
fit the image of a man who had settling down on his mind. He'd
spent the last decade as the worst sort of rake, taking pleasure
where he may. For as he well knew, life was short and certainly
meant to be enjoyed. Oh, he'd had a certain code of honor. He
never dallied with well-bred young women. Anyone who might have
any right to demand marriage was strictly off-limits.
With four younger sisters of
his own, Anthony had a healthy degree of respect for the good
reputations of gently-bred women. He'd already nearly fought
a duel for one of his sisters, all over a slight to her honor.
And as for the other three... He freely admitted that he broke
out in a cold sweat at the mere thought of their getting involved
with a man who bore a reputation like his.
No, he certainly wasn't about
to despoil some other gentleman's younger sister.
But as for the other sort of
women-- the widows and actresses who knew what they wanted and
what they were getting into-- he'd enjoyed their company and
enjoyed it well. Since the day he left Oxford and headed west
to London, he'd not been without a mistress.
Sometimes, he thought wryly,
he'd not been without two.
He'd ridden in nearly every horse
race society had to offer, he'd boxed at Gentleman Jackson's,
and he'd won more card games than he could count. (He'd lost
a few, too, but he disregarded those.) He'd spent the decade
of his twenties in a mindful pursuit of pleasure, tempered only
by his overwhelming sense of responsibility to his family.
Edmund Bridgerton's death had
been both sudden and unexpected; he'd not had a chance to make
any final requests of his eldest son before he perished. But
if he had, Anthony was certain that he would have asked him
to care for his mother and siblings with same diligence and
affection Edmund had displayed.
And so in between Anthony's rounds
of parties and horseraces, he'd sent his brothers to Eton and
Oxford, gone to a mind-numbing number of piano recitals given
by his sisters (no easy feat; three out of four of them were
tone deaf), and kept a close and watchful eye on the family
finances. With seven brothers and sisters, he saw it as his
duty to make sure there was enough money to secure all of their
futures.
As he grew closer to thirty,
he'd realized that he was spending more and more time tending
to his heritage and family and less and less in his old pursuit
of decadence and pleasure. And he'd realized that he liked it
that way. He still kept a mistress, but never more than one
at a time, and he discovered that he no longer felt the need
to enter every horse race or stay late at a party, just to win
that last hand of cards.
His reputation, of course, stayed
with him. He didn't mind that, actually. There were certain
benefits to being thought England's most reprehensible rake.
He was nearly universally feared, for example.
That was always a good thing.
But now it was time for marriage.
He ought to settle down, have a son. He had a title to pass
on, after all. He did feel a rather sharp twinge of regret --and
perhaps a touch of guilt as well-- over the fact that it was
unlikely that he'd live to see his son into adulthood. But what
could he do? He was the firstborn Bridgerton of a firstborn
Bridgerton of a firstborn Bridgerton eight times over. He had
a dynastic responsibility to be fruitful and multiply.
Besides, he took some comfort
in knowing that he'd leave three able and caring brothers behind.
They'd see to it that his son was brought up with the love and
honor that every Bridgerton enjoyed. His sisters would coddle
the boy, and his mother might spoil him...
Anthony actually smiled a bit
as he thought of his large and often boisterous family. His
son would not need a father to be well-loved. And whatever children
he sired-- well, they probably wouldn't remember him after he
was gone. They'd be young, unformed. It had not escaped Anthony's
notice that of all the Bridgerton children, he, the eldest,
was the one most deeply affected by their father's death.
Anthony downed another sip of
his scotch and straightened his shoulders, pushing such unpleasant
ruminations from his mind. He needed to focus on the matter
at hand, namely, the pursuit of a wife.
Being a discerning and somewhat
organized man, he'd made a mental list of requirements for the
position. First, she ought to be reasonably attractive. She
needn't be a raving beauty (although that would be nice), but
if he was going to have to bed her, he figured a bit of attraction
ought to make the job more pleasant.
Second, she couldn't be stupid.
This, Anthony mused, might be the most difficult of his requirements
to fill. He was not universally impressed by the mental prowess
of London debutantes. The last time he'd made the mistake of
engaging a young chit fresh out of the schoolroom in conversation,
she'd been unable to discuss anything other than food (she'd
had a plate of strawberries in her hand at the time) and the
weather (and she hadn't even gotten that right; when
Anthony had asked if she thought the weather was going to turn
inclement, she'd replied, "I'm sure I don't know. I've never
been to Clement.")
He might be able to avoid conversation
with a wife who was less than brilliant, but he did not want
stupid children.
Third--and this was the most
important--she couldn't be anyone with whom he might actually
fall in love.
Under no circumstances would
this rule be broken.
He wasn't a complete cynic; he
knew that true love existed. Anyone who'd ever been in the same
room with his parents knew that true love existed.
But love was a complication
he wished to avoid. He had no desire for his life to be visited
by that particular miracle.
And since Anthony was used to
getting what he wanted, he had no doubt that he would find an
attractive, intelligent woman with whom he would never fall
in love. And what was the problem with that? Chances were he
wouldn't have found the love of his life even if he had been
looking for her. Most men didn't.
"Good God, Anthony, what
has you frowning so? Not that olive. I saw it clearly and it
didn't even touch you."
Benedict's voice broke him out
of his reverie, and Anthony blinked a few times before answering,
"Nothing. Nothing at all."
He hadn't, of course, shared
his thoughts about his own mortality with anyone else, even
his brothers. It was not the sort of thing one wanted to advertise.
Hell, if someone had come up to him and said the same thing,
he probably would have laughed him right out the door.
But no one else could understand
the depth of the bond he'd felt with his father. And no one
could possibly understand the way Anthony felt it in his bones,
how he simply knew that he could not live longer than his father
had done. Edmund had been everything to him. He'd always aspired
to be as great a man as his father, knowing that that was unlikely,
yet trying all the same. To actually achieve more than Edmund
had --in any way-- that was nothing short of impossible.
Anthony's father was, quite simply,
the greatest man he'd ever known, possibly the greatest man
who'd ever lived. To think that he might be more than that seemed
conceited in the extreme.
Something had happened to him
the night his father had died, when he'd remained in his parents'
bedroom with the body, just sitting there for hours, watching
his father and trying desperately to remember every moment they'd
shared. It would be so easy to forget the little things-- how
Edmund would squeeze Anthony's upper arm when he needed encouragement.
Or how he could recite from memory Balthazar's entire "Sigh
No More," song from Much Ado About Nothing, not because
he thought it particularly meaningful but just because he liked
it.
And when Anthony finally emerged
from the room, the first streaks of dawn pinking the sky, he
somehow knew that his days were numbered, and numbered in the
same way Edmund's had been.
"Spit it out," Benedict said,
breaking into his thoughts once again. "I won't offer you a
penny for your thoughts, since I know they can't possibly be
worth that much, but what are you thinking about?"
Anthony suddenly sat up straighter,
determined to force his attention back to the matter at hand.
After all, he had a bride to choose, and that was surely serious
business. "Who is considered the diamond of this season?" he
asked.
His brothers paused for a moment
to think on this, and then Colin said, "Edwina Sheffield. Surely
you've seen her. Rather petite, with blond hair and blue eyes.
You can usually spot her by the sheeplike crowd of lovesick
suitors following her about."
Anthony ignored his brother's
attempts at sarcastic humor. "Has she a brain?"
Colin blinked, as if the question
of a woman with a brain was one that had never occurred to him.
"Yes, I rather think she does. I once heard her discussing mythology
with Middlethorpe, and it sounded as if she had the right of
it."
"Good," Anthony said, letting
his glass of scotch hit the table with a thunk. "Then I'll marry
her."